Yesterday was Reuven-Mommy day and Roo chose the
We walked towards the Kotel (Western Wall), readied ourselves to walk through security, and I realized that we were spending our "Mommy and me time" at *THE* holiest site on the planet. I mean, I love a good mani/ pedi with Esti, movie with
Roo and I took pictures in the Kotel plaza and he headed towards the Wall. I was going to head over to the women's side, but instead, chose to observe him as he entered the Site. I watched as my 12 year old, wearing a black Dave and Buster's T-shirt, khaki shorts, knitted keepah, blue Converse sneakers, and overly folded white socks that he’d borrowed from someone's drawer, walked over to the Wall, took in everything around him, placed his hands on the stones, and spoke to G-D. I don't know what he said nor does it matter. But I watched as he seemed to let the holiness of the place and the serenity of where he stood seep into his pores. I watched as he borrowed a siddur (prayer book) from a stand nearby, and prayed. I watched, and stood, and cried. I closed my eyes, thanked G-D for the gift of being in His presence, bringing us Home, and listening to my son. I too, let the holiness seep in as my son stood at the Wall and shared his thoughts. I watched my son, who is named for my father, connect intimately with who and what he really is. And then I cried a little more.
The Wall has this uncanny ability to equalize everyone and everything in Its presence. No one is more or less religious and it doesn't matter how much or how little, within reason, is covered. We all stand before G-D when we stand at the Wall, which is perhaps why I felt so at peace when we were there. More than that though, I felt a sweetness, a joy, as I watched my son, the one who I'm certain will one day make me pull my hair out, the one who I think may very well drive me to drink, and the one to whom I often contemplate yelling, "DO IT 'CAUSE I SAID SOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" He was a sight to behold as he and G-D shared their moment.
I went to the women's side to say Mincha, afternoon prayers, & had many a word with G-D. Thank you is overused and often uttered meaninglessly, but I said it anyway. I thanked G-D for His love, compassion, strength, and understanding. I thanked Him for opening my heart and that of my son's and giving us the ability to share our words with Him.
Why do you make ne cry so much? This is so beautiful
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful Rachel. And just a reinforcer that your Roo is going to come out just find after the stress, trials and tribulations of leaving all that he knew to move to Israel. Looks like he is surely going to, and surely has, found his own path.
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